| Location | Sheffield |
| Age | 9 days |
| Cause of Death | Genetic Condition |
| Date of Birth | 12/07/1996 |
| Date of Death | 21/07/1996 |
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We are in the year 1996 and I have just moved into a property with my two other daughters Kimberley 2yrs and Rebecca was 1yrs. we got settled in to the property then all of a sudden I was expect my 3rd child.
I suppose that I was lucky in a way because I was not like most mums that was expecting because I never suffer with back ache or morning sickness with any of my babies. The only time I knew that they were a baby growing inside of me is when it started kicking.
We had been in the house for some months now and we were in May 1996. My belly was allot bigger than it was with my last two children and now and again I started to have abnormal pains in my abdomen and didn’t really think any think of it because with the size I were I but it down to it being a big baby.
On this particular night I put the girls to bed and I sat on the sofa watching TV. I went to bed around 11pm and check that the girls were ok. I always us to leave my bedroom door open and the girls bedroom door open with the landing light on.
Early hours in the morning I woke up sweating because I had such a terrible dream. That I was going to have a baby girl and she was going to died at 9 days. I reach for my water and put my hand on my belly and said to myself no this is just a dream they is nothing wrong. I then look at my bedroom window as I was layer down in my bed and I could not believe what I saw, I saw a tall dark figure that just blow a kiss and waved at me then it walk away and it came back and did it again and went. Has it walk away it looked like it was going through the girls bedroom. That guardian angel came to warm me
That morning when I got up I saw to the girls but I think I was in shock. Because the spirit I saw was not there to hurt me or my girls at all. And I do not know who it was to this day.
After see this I moved house two days after and I got rid of all the baby things like the cot pram clothes bottles nappies ect. I just though it came to tell me you don’t have baby items in your house until the baby his born.
When I moved into my new house I didn’t see the spirit again. But then the abnormal abdomen pains started again and this time I honestly thought I was in labour. I got rush to the northern general hospital in Sheffield were I got but on the machines. The baby’s heart was fine and it showed that I was having some really strong abdomen pains. The midwife did an internal on me and the shocking thing was that she said I was not in labour. So she decided to give me some painkillers for the pain and they also wanted to keep me in over night for me to have some test do to see if I have gone diabetic or have a water infection of some kind and also to have bloods done and a scan the next morning.
When I got up the following morning I was over the moon the pains had stop so I though you are going to hang on and stay a few more months what a good baby you are I thought. The midwife then came to me with a drink. She said you have to drink this it was thick and pink and just tasted like they had put a full bag of sugar init. Then they came to take me for a scan and took my bloods and a sample of my water. The midwife took me back to the ward and I was just sat waiting. Time was ticking on and then I started to wiggle my thumbs. When the midwife came to me they was more than 1 2 3 and same goes for the doctor that came with them. I could feel my heart pounding I knew that some think was not right. The doctor said to me they is no signs of any infections but what I have to tell you is that your baby is very very ill. I turned around and said to him what do you mean my baby looks perfect in every way on the scan so what is wrong? He said that my baby had a very small stomach and very long neck abnormalities to the hands and feet, and they were no abdomen to be seen he then said the reason why you are so big and it looks like you are having more than one baby is because the babys brain is not telling it to swollow the fluid to pea it out. I sat on my bed as the tears was rolling down my face and I thought am I hereing right and I said to the doctor what are you trying to say to me here . He said I am truly sorry but your baby has all the sign of Edwards Syndrome and it is a possibility that the baby is going to died. He explained that they is not many baby’s that live up to the age of one with this and if they do then after this age their life will be touch and go.
I didn’t believe what he was saying to me so I when to Jessop’s hospital in Sheffield for a second opinion. It was then that I realise that my baby was really ill when they told me exactly the same thing. I asked what sex it was and they told me a little girl. Then the dream and the spirit came back to me and I thought to myself maybe they came to warn me and I took no notice of it. I then started to blame myself but if I told people what I saw would they have believed me? because I don’t think that they would have done.
Chelsea Anne Lawton was born On the 12th july 1996 at 6.45pm weighting 2lbs 14oz she tried her best when she was taken of the machine but every time she struggled and had to be placed back on it, When she was born she could not open her eyes close her mouth suck of a bottle mover her legs are arms Chelsea was just laid there being drip fed and being kept on oxygen that was keeping her alive, and having bloods taken of her every day.
When Chelsea was 8days old the doctors tried there best for her and they was nothing else they could do. They asked me if I would turn all the machines of that Chelsea was on. It was the hardest decison I have ever had to make because you never ever expect to burry your own child beore you. I turn the machines of and on Sunday the 21st July 1996 Chelsea Ann Lawton past away peace in my arms at ten to ten at night.
Not long after Chelseas death I was expecting again practaliy streat away. I didnt want another baby so soon after Chelseas death. But I could not part with the baby ether. When it come to dec 1996 I was 3 month and when I when for my first scan they told me that I was having twins. I could not believe what I was herein.
On the 1st jan 1997 I started to bleed and I got rush to the hospital and it was two late. I was nearly 4 months when I lost the twins they was both boys named Ricky lee, and Mitchell paul scott
They was a all very special babys that will always be saddle missed by me who is there Mummy and there Five sisters Kimberley Rebecca Catrina Natasha Keira and the one and only brother Kyle
Now you can go and dance with the angles and spread your wings and fly we love each and everyone of my babys
i love you more than you realise
and now you are not here
i for got to come to see you
and now i shed that tear
was it because i was havng fun
and it was taken from my mind
it is a day i should never for get
chelsea you was mind
lv you always and for ever mummy x x x sisters and bro x x x x
ღ ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ ღ
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*ღ.......ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ.......ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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░░░ ♥▀██♥██▀.....Dreams
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▀██♥██▀.♥......Angel
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~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ~♥x♥~ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ~♥x♥~
Chelsea Anne Lawton
Hello bby girl Mummy just sending u big hugsssss and kissers to heaven so make sure u catch them
lv and miss u 4ever and always
X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X x X
December 2010
Every winter that comes,
The pain is always they,
No present for you to open
And the Christmas tree is bear,
Now I’m sat in the corner,
Wishing for something else,
Part of me started sinking,
When I lost something else,
Every winter that comes,
I wish that I could have you back,
A monist a family that loved you,
And they would not be no turning back,
Every winter that comes,
I hate being all alone,
Looking at an empty room,
Where my babes should be allowed to rome,
Having fun at the table,
Playing with Christmas dinner,
Slapping the potatoes around you,
Listening to all your cheer,
lv u 4eve and always mummy sisters kimberley rebecca catrina natasha keira and brother kyle x x
Chelsea look after ur new angel that has entre ur garen
I have only just lost you and the pain is hard to bear,
Do I have to go through life knowing youre not there,
i sit here and remember all the lovely times we shared,
The talks the laughts and how you cared,
I,ll think of you without a tear,
But that will be impossible as I need you here,
You were the every world to me,
My every guiding star,
Just kiss me softly on the cheek and tell me where you are,
All I have is memories and cherish I will do,
But I would give everything for one more day with you,
The affection you showed right to the end,
I didnt just loss my daughter,
I lost my dearest friend,
lv mummy
Do u understand wot its like to loss a child r baby becos i do
U ask em how they r feeling,
But do u really wot 2 no?
The moment dat they try 2 tell u,
U say u dont ave 2 no
Becos I am lonely,
U see, no 1 cums around.
I’ll take the words I wot 2 say,
N quietly choke em down.
Every1 avoids me now,
Becos they don’t no wot 2 say,
They tell me “I’ll b there 4 u”
Den turn and walk away.
“Call me if u need me now”
Dat’s wot every1 said,
But how can I call u and
scream in2 the phone,
“My God, My child is dead”.
No 1 will let me -
Say the words I need to say,
Why does a Mother’s grief,
Scare every1 away?
I’m tired of pretending,
As my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things 2 make u comfortable,
But my soul, it finds no rest.
How can I tell u things,
That are too sad 2 b told,
Of the helplessness of holding a child,
Who in your arms grows cold.
Mayb u can tell me,
How should 1 bhave,
Who’s had 2 follow their child’s casket,
Watched it perched above a grave.
U cannot imagine,
Wot it was like 4 me that day,
2 place a final kiss upon that box,
And ave 2 walk away.
If u really lv me,
And I blieve u do,
If u really want 2 help me,
Ere’s wot I need from u.
Sit down bside me,
Reach out, and take my hand,
Say, “My friend I’ve cum 2 listen,
I want 2 understand.”
Just hold my hand and listen,
That’s all u need 2 do,
And if by chance, I shed a tear,
It’s alright if u do 2
Chelsea I lv u very much lv mummy x x
i lv u baby girl
i will hold my memories tight
u mean the world to me
catch ur kiss gd night
lv mummy x x x
Little Angel - by Unknown Author
God sent an Angel to the Earth...
The sweetest Angel too
And for such a tiny little thing,
She had so much to do.
She knew she did not have
Much time upon this earth to stay,
So she did not waste a second;
She got started right away.
Her eyes were bright and sparkly,
She took in every turn.
She did not miss a single thing,
Because Angel came to learn!
God sent her here to touch the
Hearts of those he could not reach...
She taught them courage, strength and faith,
Because Angel came to teach.
Her tiny little body
Was so full of God above,
You felt it when you held her,
Because Chelsea came to love.
In a few short months she managed
What many never will.
When she went home to Jesus,
Her purpose was fulfilled.
She learned and taught, loved and played,
She learned his lessons well.
I know he was so proud of her
When she went home to dwell.
But when I miss her OH-SO-MUCH,
I can almost hear God say,
Please understand, her work was done...
Chelsea did not come to stay.
that time as come around again,
Now that time as come again,
With very sad regret,
Now my head is on my knees,
My pillow is soaking wet,
Im looking into the sky above,
Waiting for your star to shine,
Has it twinkles in my eyes,
Youve showed me that little sign,
Now I can say to my little girl,
Spread your wings and fly,
Your free to dance like peter pan,
With the fairys fluttering by,
lv u for ever and aways chelsea ann 12 / 7 / 96 to the 21 / 7 /96
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